من كان لله كما يريد، كان الله له فوق ما يريد
Siapa keadaannya seperti apa yang Allah inginkan;
Allah ada baginya melampaui segala harapan.

A Love Letter for Ruzainah

بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم

Assalamualaikum & Hi! 😃

My last post here was more than a year ago!
As usual, it has been so long.
Alhamdulillah, though, I still got the chance to express my words here.

This entry is very special in a way. Oh yes.. I have never shared anything here since the last time I updated this blog through this post -- BACK TO 2017! Ya Allah.. So many things to catch up yet so less of time that I have. Huhuhu. It's okay.. Past is past. This time, I want to share about someone who has took one special place in my heart; all of this entry is specially dedicated for her. 💖

You know, more than a year back I was the only girl in my project site. I felt very alone. I could not find someone to talk to about the things that were burdening my heart and I was also going through somehow quite a difficult phase in my life. But one day, a beautiful soul came into my life. She delighted my life at work! 

Little did I know, a text I received from someone asking for a direction to our project site (damn she called me kakak in the text!) could be the catalyst of a very beautiful friendship and little did I know that when I was at the lowest point in my life, when I thought I was not good enough to be in this world, when I could no longer fight to see tomorrow, and when I felt so, so incredibly alone, that very same beautiful soul would be the one pulling me out of the darkness simply by asking me every day, "Hajar okay tak ni?”

This beautiful soul would stick with me for hours at work, all day from morning till evening, kadang kadang sampai malam wehh kitorang lepak just listening to me ramble on and on about the things that were troubling my mind and my heart. Dia hilang kalau dia kena pergi site and busy gila just like me also. She listened, and never judged and she would always remind me to maintain my patience, be strong, following with her addicting-oxytocin-releaser-kind-of-calming-relieving-hugs every time. (Okay I admit that I actually started this. Huhu.) And she has been with me through so much of my life on the past year even though we can go to the extent of having a crazy-wrestling-stunt-tarik tudung-tarik rambut-smack here-there kind of drama also starring Anis as our highlighter every day. Lol! 

This beautiful soul, is my baby girl, Ruzainah. Some of you may know her as Ruz or Aida Jebat or Hmmmm (dm me further) - and she is all kinds of awesome - but I don't think I can ever find the words to express how extremely grateful I am for her. Awwhhh!

Ruz, I hope that our friendship will remain forever, though, maybe someday we will no longer be working in the same Company. Now we are separated by the fate, I was placed in TRX, you were placed in KLCC East. But Allah knows our sorrow, he united us back in TRX after you transfer to the Rebar Yard at Jalan Inai. Again, we had happy time together every day, like nothing that can separate us after all. I guess it’s true what people say, though, even the best-laid plans go astray. We are again separated recently; I was taken away to HQ while she stays at the Rebar Yard…

What I have been felt all the while when I am with her? - a sense of togetherness, of camaraderie. Camaraderie is a mutual trust and friendship among people who spend a lot of time together. Now I realized how grateful we should be towards all the blessings from Allah. Literally, none of us is ever alone and that when we do anything for Allah, He will always send us good people to help us in our day to day. Just like how He sent Ruz to me when I needed someone. I really mean this… And that's all that matters at the end of the day, isn't it? That I love her very much, how I hope that she loves me as much as I do. Eventually, what we are all seeking for is His grace, to accompany every step in the course of our life. I love you very much Ruzainah! 😍💕

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